Pp's blog

I have decided l will go back to work tomorrow...I visited the Doc who decided l am suffering from anxiety attacks (but l knew that) and l am also menopausal... (ummmmm dont think so).

He gave me a prescription for some HRT patches... reading the enclosed leaflet out loud, if l apply them l could suffer with side effects! ( i wont bother putting down here what they are. I have a months supply so l will perservere and stick one on my thigh... The leaflet states they have to be put on below the waist.

After l picked up my prescription l went into Holland & Barratt and brought a large bottle of evening primrose oil tablets. That should do the trick.

What do you do when you are so stressed out its affecting your health and you know what it is due to but nobody understands how you feel?

What do you do when you cant sleep at night, you are having vivid dreams and night sweats so bad you have to jump out of bed and wipe yourself down with a towel.

What do you do when you dont want to put a foot outside the door and you feel no enthuiasm to do anything, you dont want to go to work you dont even want to talk to your family about how you feel.

What do you do when you feel that you are wallowing in self pity and you know darn well that there are other people who have problems that are far worse than yours but you are not interested in hearing there problems and they are not interested in hearing yours.

What do you do when you know you can talk yourself into trouble but cant talk yourself out of it.

You may be saying to yourself get a life girl or whats this woman on about... a grown women who should be able to rise above it and say what the heck l dont care let them do their worse l can survive.

So why am l feeling like this... l want to chuck everything in and start again but l cant.

This is the reason l havent been blogging...(all doom and gloom) and l cant tell my blog my reason because someone might relate to them and l will get into more trouble...

My problems are work related and personal life related (not immediate family) but when it's all over and finished l will reveal the reasons why.

I dont think its the menopause!!! Just need some happy pills at the moment.

What do you do when you are so stressed out its affecting your health and you know what it is due to but nobody understands how you feel?

What do you do when you cant sleep at night, you are having vivid dreams and night sweats so bad you have to jump out of bed and wipe yourself down with a towel.

What do you do when you dont want to put a foot outside the door and you feel no enthuiasm to do anything, you dont want to go to work you dont even want to talk to your family about how you feel.

What do you do when you feel that you are wallowing in self pity and you know darn well that there are other people who have problems that are far worse than yours but you are not interested in hearing there problems and they are not interested in hearing yours.

What do you do when you know you can talk yourself into trouble but cant talk yourself out of it.

You may be saying to yourself get a life girl or whats this woman on about... a grown women who should be able to rise above it and say what the heck l dont care let them do their worse l can survive.

So why am l feeling like this... l want to chuck everything in and start again but l cant.

This is the reason l havent been blogging...(all doom and gloom) and l cant tell my blog my reason because someone might relate to them and l will get into more trouble...

My problems are work related and personal life related (not immediate family) but when it's all over and finished l will reveal the reasons why.

I dont think its the menopause!!! Just need some happy pills at the moment.