Pp's blog

I have decided l will go back to work tomorrow...I visited the Doc who decided l am suffering from anxiety attacks (but l knew that) and l am also menopausal... (ummmmm dont think so).

He gave me a prescription for some HRT patches... reading the enclosed leaflet out loud, if l apply them l could suffer with side effects! ( i wont bother putting down here what they are. I have a months supply so l will perservere and stick one on my thigh... The leaflet states they have to be put on below the waist.

After l picked up my prescription l went into Holland & Barratt and brought a large bottle of evening primrose oil tablets. That should do the trick.

What do you do when you are so stressed out its affecting your health and you know what it is due to but nobody understands how you feel?

What do you do when you cant sleep at night, you are having vivid dreams and night sweats so bad you have to jump out of bed and wipe yourself down with a towel.

What do you do when you dont want to put a foot outside the door and you feel no enthuiasm to do anything, you dont want to go to work you dont even want to talk to your family about how you feel.

What do you do when you feel that you are wallowing in self pity and you know darn well that there are other people who have problems that are far worse than yours but you are not interested in hearing there problems and they are not interested in hearing yours.

What do you do when you know you can talk yourself into trouble but cant talk yourself out of it.

You may be saying to yourself get a life girl or whats this woman on about... a grown women who should be able to rise above it and say what the heck l dont care let them do their worse l can survive.

So why am l feeling like this... l want to chuck everything in and start again but l cant.

This is the reason l havent been blogging...(all doom and gloom) and l cant tell my blog my reason because someone might relate to them and l will get into more trouble...

My problems are work related and personal life related (not immediate family) but when it's all over and finished l will reveal the reasons why.

I dont think its the menopause!!! Just need some happy pills at the moment.

What do you do when you are so stressed out its affecting your health and you know what it is due to but nobody understands how you feel?

What do you do when you cant sleep at night, you are having vivid dreams and night sweats so bad you have to jump out of bed and wipe yourself down with a towel.

What do you do when you dont want to put a foot outside the door and you feel no enthuiasm to do anything, you dont want to go to work you dont even want to talk to your family about how you feel.

What do you do when you feel that you are wallowing in self pity and you know darn well that there are other people who have problems that are far worse than yours but you are not interested in hearing there problems and they are not interested in hearing yours.

What do you do when you know you can talk yourself into trouble but cant talk yourself out of it.

You may be saying to yourself get a life girl or whats this woman on about... a grown women who should be able to rise above it and say what the heck l dont care let them do their worse l can survive.

So why am l feeling like this... l want to chuck everything in and start again but l cant.

This is the reason l havent been blogging...(all doom and gloom) and l cant tell my blog my reason because someone might relate to them and l will get into more trouble...

My problems are work related and personal life related (not immediate family) but when it's all over and finished l will reveal the reasons why.

I dont think its the menopause!!! Just need some happy pills at the moment.

Thank goodness today is over and done with for another year... It was our sheltered tenants christmas party and boy did it take some organising all to be over within 3 hours... We gave out invites took in replies, sold raffle tickets to over 600 tenants... Then arranged the catering, the venue and the entertainment and the transport... We brought 35 raffle prizes including hampers, with my artistic skills and some cellophane and ribbon they look really impressive ( well l thought they did).

The star guests were Elvis Wesley, Fannie get your gun (Me), Grace Shelley, Alan Enter-tain, A singing dancing christmas tree with flashing lights, The local school choir and of course Santa Claus.

I must admit it was fun and the sheltered tenants seemed to enjoy it. We plied them with loads of sherry and bucks fizz and of course cups of tea...

It took longer to clean up after than it did to prepare! but thats always the case isnt it.

When l got home my feet ached so much l had to soak them in a herbal tea bag to bring them back to life.

All l can say is thank goodness it's only once a year... but what the heck as long as they enjoyed it and went home with a memory.

I have not been blogging for a while... No excuse just didnt know what to write about... except woo is me stuff which would sound as if l was wingeing.

Tonight l have travelled 150 miles in my Soft Top Jeep... I do this journey often at the weekends but tonight was the worst road conditions l have ever encountered... It took me 40 minutes longer than usual. The wind was so bad l was grabbing hold of the steering wheel for fear of being blown over the other side of the road.

I stuck to 50 miles an hours and got caught behind every lorry travelling in the same direction... The tail wind from them was no joke. Boy was l pleased to get home...

I am definetly going to buy a different car... Mine is more like a beach buggy... Lovely for the summer or short journeys but not ideal for motorways and long hauls.

I am going for an interview tomorrow for a job that l am already doing... The company have decided to split our role in two thus making one job into two. It is a good idea because we have a lot to do and not enough hours in the day to do it. where the line is going to be drawn l have not idea.

I am the only internal candidate. I have been doing this role for 4 years now and l am really nervous because l am going to look so daft if l dont get it and some outsider does. Which could happen if they have experience enough. My moral/confidence will take a real bashing.

l have been swotting up tonight on policies and procedures till they are comming out of my ears. I am good at my job but to answer questions about it is another matter. (wish l knew what they are going to ask me)

All this reading and l cant digest it at all... its all jargon... I dont do jargon.

I know l shall be dreaming it tonight.

I have a friend who has had an accident at work and is now unable to manage his affairs... No one can get into his assetts because he didnt do this. He is unable to converse or instruct at all. It can happen to anyone. Think about it... you might develop a Mental illness or develop a long term illness or become incapacitated in some way... The Enduring Power of Attorney does not have to be done through the courts but best to do it through a Solicitor. Do it now because once you are ill it would have to go through the courts and that can take months. Which could mean bank charges and other charges as your bills go unpaid.

Just keep the document in a safe place at home and tell the appointed person where it is in case of an severe accident.

You can destroy this document at any time if its the Enduring one or with notice change your appointed person.

If you became ill or disabled without an Enduring Power of Attorney (EPA) and you were unable to manage your financial affairs, no one could act on your behalf unless they first went to court and were appointed your Receiver by the Court of Protection. Even your spouse and children would be powerless to act on your behalf.

Although the courts will appoint someone to act for you and to protect your interests, this is not always a desirable alternative for three reasons:
The delay. It can take several weeks or even months to have someone appointed who will have the authority to make legal, financial and business decisions on your behalf. With an EPA the person you appoint (called the 'Attorney') can act for you immediately. As a result, someone you trust will continue controlling your interests.

Selecting your Attorney. When someone is ill or disabled they lose the ability to select their Attorney and the court may or may not appoint the person you would prefer as Receiver.

The advantages of immediate and lasting delegation. From the date on which the EPA is signed by the Attorney, he or she has the authority to act on your behalf unless you have specifically excluded certain powers. This means that you can take advantage of being able to delegate responsibilities if, for example, the Attorney goes on holiday.
Law stated as at 1 April, 2005

It begins as soon as it's been signed, but you can restrict it by stating that it shouldn't begin until you're incapable of acting on your own behalf.

The cost is around £95 to £125 depending.

Using a Power of Attorney, you can grant someone the authority to act on your behalf and manage your financial interests. It really is a good idea to think about doing this.

I think everyone should do it because now adays a lot of people manage their affairs and finances online and they have passwords and user names that no-one else knows about. Which is what has happened to my friend who is computer literate but his family isnt!

In my family all my passwords and user names are kept on a disc in a secret hiding place should they ever need to gain access also l have written them out in my Will. Everyone should also have a Will, Whatever thier income... Save your loved one a lot of hassle and worry at a time when they are not thinking straight.

Is'nt it funny how you go all gibbery gooch when there is a baby in the house?

My Eldest daughter (single, no children, lives on her own) telphoned me this morning to ask if l was going out today? I said l was later on this afternoon... She said can l come over and you? Sure l said you dont have to ask! She then told me she was baby sitting for the day for a friend, A seven month old baby girl. Oh because of this she is unable to do her washing so can she bring that over as well...

Isnt it funny how when a baby is present you all forget to talk properly... You make funny noises... screw your face up... shake your head a lot and make up a completely different language.

She has been as good as gold up to now... had her nappy changed (took 2 of us) after we worked out which way round it went! trying to stop her rolling over and crawling around the floor... Then it was feeding time, Yes l know it usually the other way around but the nappy was poohy... She ate it all up... and then started crying cos there wasnt any more... so we put some music on and started singing and rocking her to sleep as she hadnt had a nap at all today.... No that didnt work... ummmm 'Mum do you want anything over the shop?' Good idea... take her around the shops and she might fall asleep... Bliss... Quick clear up... quick snack before she wakes up... l really have forgotten how exhausting having a baby in the house is... but l loved every minute of it.

Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.

Well today l did...

Today at work we had an agency cleaner who was caught out by our manager cleaning a tenants flat in work time... when she should have been cleaning communal area's only. I didnt report her but someone else did... l usually keep my head down and say nothing.

I saw this lady later on in the day (first time l had met her) and she told me she had just had her knuckle wrapped and what for... she was really distressed... I sympathised with her and said l was sorry she got told off but company rules have to be adhered. l helped her for half an hour with the rest of her work. When she went home after her 4 hours were up l said goodbye and see you on Monday... she said l dont think so... I dont think l will be comming back and went off.

Later that day l saw our Manager and told her that l didnt think the domestic was comming back as she was upset at the way she was spoken to this morning and we might find ourselves without a cleaner on Monday... My boss then got onto the agency and said she didnt want her back because she had spoken to me and not to her! Plus a few other details, (which now l know were not true and she was exaggerating.

Later that day the lady who's flat she cleaned said to me... What a nice lady that new cleaner is and told me her vacummn cleaner had broken down in the morning... she had mentioned it to the cleaner and she said dont worry you can borrow this one when l am done... and then said oh as l am outside your door l will quickly vacummn round for you...

These facts werent told to me before by the manager or the cleaner before she went... Just wait till Monday when l tell her... I think she did that lady an injustice by telling her off before she knew the whole story... She thought she was doing private cleaning for personal gain inside working hours.

I was so glad l was sympathic towards her at least she knows we are not all tyrants!

How true...
Saw this and thought l would share it... Made me smile

Being British is about driving in a German car to an Irish pub
For a Belgian beer,

Then traveling home, grabbing an Indian curry or a
Turkish kebab on the way, to sit on Swedish furniture and watch American Shows on a Japanese TV.

And the most British thing of all?
Suspicion of anything foreign!!

Oh and......

Only in Britain... can a pizza get to your house faster than an
Ambulance.

Only in Britain... do supermarkets make sick people walk all
The way to the back of the shop to get their prescriptions while healthy
People can buy cigarettes at the front.

Only in Britain... do people order double cheeseburgers, large
Fries and a DIET coke.

Only in Britain... do banks leave both doors open and chain the
Pens to the counters.

Only in Britain... do we leave cars worth thousands of pounds
on the drive and lock our junk and cheap lawn mower in the garage.

Only in Britain... do we use answering machines to screen calls
And then have call waiting so we won't miss a call from someone we didn't want to talk to in the first place.

Only in Britain... are there disabled parking places in front
of a Skating rink.